Cheerful Giver

It's been six months since my last blog, so I thought it was time to revisit.

Today I'm thinking about my position in life. Now I know my Blog is called, "A Mom, a Wife, a Dreamer...", but what about my position to others outside of my home? We have sacrificed many things so that I may be a "stay at home mom" and I feel that it has honored me with more than just taking care of my household. I have the ability and blessing of helping others. Those mom's who have to go to work full time AND be a Mom, or the older ones who's family lives far away...the scenario's are endless. I guess I was just thinking that my position in life right now, is pretty darn awesome! When I was a single mom and worked two jobs, I remember wishing that I could help people who were sick by bringing them a meal or babysitting some one's children if they needed that. However, I just couldn't...my plate was full. Now, though, my plate is overflowing...in a good way. I would rather be running around after my friends children laughing and playing,or cooking an amazing meal for someone who really appreciates it, or just being an open ear to a friend in need over a cup of coffee, than any other job in the world. My son knowing that I am HERE and he has my undivided attention...is worth giving up two vacations a year and a brand new car or the newest phone and the "trendiest" clothes!

No matter what our position in life may be, there is always someone, somewhere who has it worse. I think it's important to remember that EVERY DAY, and it will help us keep our faith up, and our worries won't seem so big! LOVE, LOVE, LOVE!!!

Canoe

Here I am, sitting on a bleacher. My hair is in a pony tail, I have a vest on, a travel mug of coffee and I am wearing crocs. My handsome husband is sitting next to me with his coffee and we are watching our son sit in a canoe, with a life jacket on,floating in a pool. Suddenly I realized, OMG! I'm a soccer mom!!! Maybe he's not playing soccer, but we are cheering him on and we're sitting on a bleacher and we came here in a mini van. AHHHHH!!!! It was so funny to realize, but it was nice also. It was a nice realization that sometimes things that we steer clear of, in actuality, bring us most joy. We were so proud of him and his learning how to master something. Seeing him gain confidence in himself and making us proud...he was so happy! Who can beat that! So here's a cheer to all the soccer moms out there! Those moms who rush around to fit in events for their children, when in reality are completely at inconvenient times during the week, and yet somehow we make it work. Coming home for dinner and homework and reading and family time! A mothers job is an important one. Never forget that!

How I came to be here as a mom

I gave birth to my son when I was 20 years old and was not planning on it. However, he changed me forever...I think I would have been lost if it wasn't for him. Some women,when they are not expecting to have a baby, go through many emotions. They either commit to it and let it change them,they may choose not to have the baby,they give it up for adoption,they have the baby while kicking and screaming and just do it b/c the feel it's the right thing but always resent their child. I do not judge any of these choices.I just found myself amongst these women and this is my story. I never thought of giving him up or abortion. But I was completely unprepared.I had been traveling all over the place...living in Florida and then NH, going where the wind blew me and at my own pace. I was then living with my Aunt in North Hampton NH, my boyfriend lived an hour away, and I was just about to break up with him when I found out I was pregnant. I loved him, and it was his baby, but I was too young to settle down. I was a free spirit, a vagabond, a traveler. Now here I was, pregnant. Seven years later, I am happily married,with my son's father and I love it. Granted I broke up with him when my son was a year and a half, and went through many experiences and spent a time as a single mom. But even if people experience stable relationships or not, as women, we must all go through feelings of "where am I" when being a mom. That's why I am here...writing a blog :) I hope that despite challenges, that we can overcome them and be happy. We cannot control everything and everyone...but we can control ourselves. In the end, I hope someone can relate :)

A MOM, A WIFE, A DREAMER......

My first entry! My main motive to create this blog was to express the fact, that even though I am a mom and a wife, I am also a dreamer. I have hopes and dreams and thoughts and they didn't all go away because I got married and had a family. My creative juices are always at the tip of my brain, yet my family comes first and I am the caretaker...which I love to be! So how then, do I have the "other" me as well? I know I am not the only woman,nor the first to think about this. So what do we do, fellow mom/wife dreamers? I play guitar and sing. I use to play out at open mic night's and record my music. I love to write songs and poetry. I love to paint...mostly furniture and small things, but none the less, I paint. I love to cook and not from recipe. I love to go out for coffee and talk about inspiring things. I love to rediscover myself everyday, and I love to constantly change my goals and dreams. The fact here, my friends and fellow mom/wife dreamers, is just because we have promised to be faithful to the end to the one's we love, and give ourselves completely to our children...does not mean that we have disappeared. You can conquer all of these areas completely and still be who we are underneath.I have to thank my wonderful husband, who every day walks me through my endeavours!He supports me to be anything I want to be and truly loves me no matter what I do,what I look like, or how I feel. To my beautiful son Austin, who indeed changed my life forever.Introduced me to another possible me,and challenges me to be a more positive,more patient me.To all of the strong,loving women in my life...you know who you are. You are my friends,my sisters and my mothers. You are my support and my strength. Last but not least, my wonderful and loving parents! I have learned from their wisdom and by their faith in me. My mother and Father admit when they make mistakes and I think that has proven more to me than anything...that we are ALL imperfect and yet we CAN change and help others at the same time. They have an unconditional love that I am eternally greatful for! I hope to share my growth and progress with you all and encourage your feedback. With love~Amandolyn